As Sean and I were on our walk today, and I was cradling my "belly" as I used to do when I was pregnant I started to remember what it was like and how I was feeling a few months ago. I loved being pregnant and remember feeling like I did not want it to end. Partially because I was scared about not knowing how to be a mom, but also in realizing how much things change. I really enjoy being able to go grab coffee with a friend on a whim or run to the grocery store if I forgot something for dinner. I knew these things would not be easy once the baby was here.
As I continued to walk however I realized that all those fears and anxieties disappeared the moment Sean was placed in my arms. I still want to go to coffee with my girlfriends, and miss the luxury of jotting out to the store, and I admit I have no idea what I am doing as a mom, but there has never been even a second since Sean's arrival that I wished I could go back to the way things were. I consider myself truly truly blessed to get to experience this new life.